i terribly want to cry right now.
papa left now did mama.
i try to be the most useful daughter but everything i do seems so wrong.
i terribly want to cry because it has been months since I have been looking for someone to talk to. gad do i want to cry. thank you dear blog for being always there.
i know i will die anytime soon and gad I wish it is later or tomorrow. Gad I want to die. if only suicide will not bring me to hell.
Dear Lord, when will I ever be okay?
i am so fucked up. I am a bad person. I do not deserve to live.