PRANA

WOW. Seems like I've been doing a lot lately...daming time. Honestly, this post is should be about me saying goodbye to the millenial me, but we'll see. Dear blog, Me asking permission to you to have a temporarily farewell seems to be a stupid idea. We are never clingy in the first place. We can go on ignoring each other for months and even a year (one time) and still be the best of best listeners. Funny how I regard you as a person. Anyhow, you've been a great comrade! You have done so many good things to me I never expected than people whom I have met along the way. I am still a mess blog but I am working on. I will keep working on it. It took me months, year probably to get a hold of myself. I am still in the process of understanding myself and I know this process is fackin eternity. SUPERSTAR Anyway, I am so much blessed to have very supportive family members and friends. I am so much blessed to be given so many time to enter people's lives and theirs to mi...

I should be writing a post with sense right now but no, I am grossed out with the idea of love and all those cheesy moves. I am so grossed out of how people can be so fackin corny and most of all generic.  See, I slept late night/early morning yesternight watching youtube videos. I fackin hate those I crave for you I will do everything for you scenes plus I am sorry scenes. I hate those but I still watch those. hmm, anyway, followed GR again today. Maybe I was just to assuming about him changing profile picture but he changed again hahaha. wala lng I should be reading stuff about plastics now. kbye

Erma and I had a little talk after the SOTECH night, after she has delivered the batch prophecy. Kudos to her for doing it overnight! Then we came upon some random ideas which inspired us/me to continue with the prophecy. February 19, 2016 at 12:10 midnight, I am finally done! AFTER THE PROPHECY SOTECH NIGHT 2016 ACQUAINTANCE PARTY 2011 and 2012 This is a story of a girl… After the grand reunion in Brisco’s café, a consensus was made. The greatest unkabogable life-changing award-winning engineering firm will be made! This firm gives you more than just any other engineering service! With their all-around engineers, you have a lot of choices, you can never go wrong. There are different departments. Very random departments. Coming in, you would see that appointment should be made for every engineer knowing their very hectic schedule…. After being recognized by Guiness on her Hello Kitty collection, Lara Andarza was funded to travel the world. She is no...

You do not need more vogue issues. You are more than this. I have not uploaded by Davao adventure pictures yet. I was supposed to but it’s still in my phone. Anyway 00:28. There is something dramatic about posting time. I do not know why probably because it says I am still alive and minutes after that. Maybe a great clue if I die any minute now. Spotify for random music because I am trying to feel like one of those in the movies. Kahit sa blog man lng hahaha jk. Moving on (it’s February 17 minutes ago pala. Wala lang. Could have been but oh well). Moving on na talaga, I am hit by depression again. Yes, the problem is I know myself way too much. Way too much I do not know which parts I can or cannot control. I am trying to do good things to as many people as I can. The thought of death has been pouring on me lately. Two year…two years since I have a feeling that I will die anytime soon. See, kahit anong tama ang gusto kong gawin and sa tingin ko ginagawa ko, I still feel like...

you just don't know it. do you? ugh. when feelings collide, you are not sure of what to label it. I am talking about crushes, infatuations and more dangerously, love. I mean, I do not necessarily give a fuck about love in reality. All hugots I have came from the movies and how far fetch it is from reality thus everything that seems ideal is only ideal because it is in the movies. nothing more, nothing less. But fuck this dude. I don't get it and I don't get myself. Here I am again with these long term stupid aspirations. fuck fuck fuck. so i decided to unfollow. It has been two years since I decided to fix myself but fixing oneself is never fun, thought some parts are. I mean, in the process , you ask yourself why you want to fix yourself then it traces back to he main reason then reminds you why you initially sucked. When you finally think you are a better person, you remember again and try to make a comparison. Thus going back to the fool who just gave up on you e...

I often ask myself, do I need someone to talk to or do I just need to write or do I just need an adventure. See, answers (inspirations) come in different forms. Consider your country as an inspiration.  THIS COUTNRY IS BEYOND BLESSED! Things this country can offer (somehow, a checklist for me and I will try to use this lifetime though I doubt so): 1.        Pagsanjan Water falls and its water rapids! URGH! BEYOND BEAUTIFUL 2.        CDO white water rafting 3.        Danao the Plunge 4.        Davao ultralight 5.        Surfing in Mati Davao, Siargao and La Union 6.        Zipline across the West Philippines Sea in Ilocos 7.        Canyonering in Cebu 8.        Sagada adventure 9.        Bata...

I always feel excited when I have something to write. #lilanxuan So I finally updated my other post regarding to my last escapade. I am still beyond blessed. I know I was quite selfish in NOT INVITING other for the escapade but I thought it was for the best. I don’t mean to hurt anybody’s feelings and if I did, I am sorry but other than that, THANK YOU. THANK YOU, because someday we’ll figure out why. Moving on, KASI DAPAT KO NA TALAGA MAG MOVE FROM MY HIGH SCHOOL ISSUES, I still have ISSUE. I AM FACKIN SAD. SORRY SELF! NO! MORE LIKE TROUBLED! See, I am hoping to GRADUATE ON TIME AS BS CHEMICAL ENGINEERING THIS SEMESTER FROM THE UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES VISAYAS but I have to OVERLOAD for my failed strength of materials subject. I thought I will study for the break but a part of me says that “DUDE IT’S BREAK! It will be the last break before employment!” It’s not that I doubt myself if I can pass ES 13 but it’s am I really ready for the real word? I know I will never...