can't

 Something is wrong with me.

I don't have the drive to do things. So I have five requirements left for the sem and I know I can do it. I have limited time but I always end up laying on the bed closing my eyes trying to gunshot myself with my head sometimes. Sometimes I can sleep four hours which is very unusual for me because I can sleep for four hours before and be very okay with it. Now, I need 8-13 hours. This is tiring tbh. I don't know how to deal with this. I just try to go on with life. Hoping each day gets better. 

I am tired. I want to go home. I can't :(