PRANA

My 110th post... Facebook makes me more depressed more than ever... How awful it is that we are set by notifications and chat messages. It's horrible. What's worse is we are so drawn to it. It's like being in a quicksand. You wanted to go out but always end up stuck because it now has turned out to be a necessity. Look how far we have gone. Very far. Now when do we stop? When do we really stop?

So while I load my nth kdrama series..lemme post haha. Life is sad when you realize people have jobs and other serious matters to deal with. Your problems are not theirs. They may offer time to listen to you but that's just it. They're not theirs to be bothered as much as you. There are psychiatrist or people paid to listen. It's a cruel world full of cruel people. At the end of the day, it's just you and your faith. You fool yourself to keep on fighting as if there are gazillion of reasons to because society has spoken that suicide is actually a selfish act. ugh. i hate how it thinks. -_-

I have unusual fears--fear of merry-go-around, fear of balloons and..fear of sleeping. When I was in college, somniphobia was advantageous because I get to do a lot of work. Coffee became my water and the lights became my sun. My sleeping pattern did not rely on the time. Two hours of sleep was all I ever needed. I tend to tire myself a lot so that I can sleep straight. My fear of sleeping is because I am afraid of not waking up because of my dream. Ever since I was young (grade school) my dreams tend to be very realistic or even predictions. I have seen the hints about the future in my dreams for several times. The most time was when I was in grade six. I did even dream of things that say if I see "this" in real life, "this" will happen. Prediction dreams are okay. They are somewhat tolerable. What is worse than that are what I call scenario dreams. I am scared to research about sleep paralysis. I am generally scared about researching about dreams. The only re...

It's good Friday today. I have not been out of the house. Finished re-watching princess hours and some asian movies. The thing about watching these asian films is it make you think...a lot. I believe watching these films makes a woman stronger and more confident with oneself but it also make you think of what the heck are you doing with your life?! while these celebrities struggle and work hard to make these films, you are being a bum. These characters are not real and what intrigues me the most is how the manipulate us viewers on thinking about life. Sometimes I want to be like them and sometimes, i don't. Few more weeks 'til I officially start as a quality assurance analyst but I have always wondered what could happen if I pursued my tv host dream. I had the chance to choose my own course in college. The chance not my elder sister had but I blew that chance. Up to now, I am persuading myself that it was the right choice and the struggle continues. Will be a bum fo...

Back in Iloilo. Neither temporarily nor permanently. (L-R) Pat, Doms, Jay Dan, Stark, Peter, Nikolai, Sander, Me, Ann, Alexine, Raymond, Bryan, Camille, Nikko, Alinah, Je, Ysa, Ja I have been a hermit ever since I arrived last feb but lately, I have seen a lot of people both planned and unplanned especially my high school classmates. My highschool classmates and I do not meet as often as other sections or batches. When Je passed the pharmacist board exam last month, we figured to meet up together with Lei and Ann. Je and I see each other if indi kami tamad. haha. I really missed Lei and Ann. I was really grateful we got to meet in Megaworld. When Lei posted a picture of our meet up, other astros commented, wanting to have a reunion. It was a shot in the dark to organize and personally message each and everyone of the astros. My unemployed life helped me with the schedule. I was very apprehensive that no one will reply knowing all of us have grown apart. It turned out way be...