PRANA

 Dear Lord, I am scared. I have been feeling several feels lately I am not sure if it is anxiety or depression but sometimes i just eant to cry because I am feeling heavy but there is no reason i should be. I believe to think otherwise. I believe that I am okay but it seems to be difficult. Dear Lord, I am scared. I do not know how I will be ok. I am too scared to tell other people. I don;t want to bother them with their live. Dear Lord, if anything happens to me please pretty please take care of Mark Gil. We had a serious talk last night and neither of us will be giving up our religion. Either way I am grateful to have him. Please keep him safe and healthy as well as my mama and papa, my siblings, my crazy aunts and uncles and cousins and friends who became family. Lord, I am tired but my time is not up. For Your will be done and I will keep on fighting. -Jas

 Dear life, I have not been taking care of you well lately. I used to do an all-nighter skipping meals when I was in ursumco and anxiety got the best of me with my sedentary life and eating unhealthy food. I am no longer what I though I would be. My stamina is weak and so is my spirit. My body shows that. From getting high blood to lately getting bruises anywhere my body but mostly my upper thigh. I am scared but I blame no one.  I wish nothing for my loved ones but good healthy and safety. You know Lord how I fervently pray for that.  One day at a time. Through Your will. Always, Jas