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My boyfriend, Mark Gil Lim Mahinay, is the sweetest! Last night, I had anxiety. I always had anyway but last night was different. I was scared. Really scared mostly because of the pandemic. I has gassy stomach and thinking a lot of scenarios. I was extremely overthinking. I tried to distract myself with videos and everything I can think of. I drank hot water but still could not sleep. Eventually I did at aroung 3 to 4 am. Then, I had a nightmare. I had been having nightmares lately and I was scared again. Up to now, dear Lord, I am extremely scared. Tears drop as I write this entry. My anxiety is not helping me. I keep distracting myself with videos and whatever. Then bigbig called but before that I sent him a text saying how come he is not always there when I breakdown. I am not blaming him. I know how untimely it is. Then this afternoon he called. He called and played a song One Call Away. Dear Lord, I miss him. I began to cry again. It reminds me of the time when I was in Bais and...

I submitted my second draft for thesis proposal! It's not much of a biggie but at least it's a stepping stone! Finally got the flow but details are lacking. One step at a time. To anyone reading this, remember to EXERCISE. Been doing some dance workouts lately and controlling my food. Finally settled matters with my body. My body loves me and I should love my body. Ever since, my body always sends signals that I can not be extremely fat. I am my unusual self when I am very fat. That is why I danced again. It's fun! Being healthy is being happy! Anyway, with the situation of the world right now, I have been on video chats with friends and family. We have our DAILY rosary video chat at 8pm, bigbig sometimes call/ video chat at night/ midnight, I sometimes video chat the LKM girls if their internet connection cooperates. Of courses, the beaches also video chat especially during Irwin's birthday. College friends video chat too and one time we had a video chat with ma...