On a loop
I feel like my life has been on a loop and it has not been nice. I failed to finish my thesis on time because I focused so much on ClimateScience. I wanted to build a career in the climate space but it feels like I am not given any opportunities to prove myself. I feel like hanggang "volunteer" lng ako. It is very frustrating. My scholarship will end this month and I am currently looking into jobs. My employment life is not the best, heck is it good. Job hunting years ago destroyed me, my dreams, and my self-esteem. It's something I do not want to experience again but it feels like I am going back to that void. I want to finish my thesis but anxiety and fear take over me I end up being stuck. Dear Lord, I don't know what to do! I really hope to be of use. Please, help me.