the fight
I remember clearly how I felt saying goodbye to Bigbig at the bus stop. My heart was clearly unready. My heart clearly knew I did not want to go but my brain got me. It was the practical decision but it was not my decisions. I miss bigbig everyday and everyday is getting more difficult for me. I was okay in URSUMCO. I continue to earn and become a ninja though it was not the safest place to be in. It hurt me physically. I got bruises and got dirty but at the end of the day I have friends. I have a family and I get to learn. Each day in Manila, I tend to compare in Ursumco. Right now, I am unsure of what to do and where to go. Taking up master's is not one of the best decisions. Though it is not physically draining, it is mentally and emotionally challenging. Lord, it has been two months since I am crying myself to sleep and waking up questioning my worth. It has been two months since I felt so miserable. I wanted to prove a lot to people by getting this master's degree but it h...