PRANA

I honestly think that I need a life. I need to get back to my momentum wherein I get to be excited with things and they just land on their places but right now, everything is so messy. From my uncleaned clothes to my schedule to my to-do list. Everything is so wrong. April 5 and it’s papa’s birthday. Lol. 12:01 of April 6. It’s yerf’s birthday. Anyway, I miss papa and our jokes. I miss being his warrior princess. I miss being pampered. Slowly I get to adjust to my schedule. I have a plant nursery proposal to pass in hours and I am so not satisfied with it yet. Struggle. Struggle. Struggle. April 6 and how ironic it is. I should be used to being compared since I have a twin but decade have gone and every comparison feels like an arrow crushing my heart. I know I should be happy but sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to. That in every happiness there is an exchange sadness. I feel like I am not allowed to make mistakes that no matter what I do, I will neve